i have the most amazing boyfriend in the world.
yes...i did say boyfriend.
please don't let me mess this one up.
he's the most amazing thing in the world.

guess what?
someone made me really, really happy.


<-- this guy. is awesome.

who on the island makes you happiest?????
and why am I not in the random community....? that's sad. *joins* 

my head is hurting...i don't even know what's wrong with me, just that it feels like i haven't slept in forever. i think this whole idiocy with brendon and lucas has left me doubting stuff about myself...if there's anyone willing to give me a little help of any kind, get ahold of me please. i really need some relief or something...

i absolutely hate everything about this place, i think.

i haven't seen my roommate or any of my so called friends in awhile. i think that also makes this place suck.

michael

What a waste of time, the thought crossed my mind
But I never missed a beat
Can't explain the who or what I was
Trying to believe
What would you do?
What would you do?
Do you know?
I once had a grip on everything
It feels better to let go

I'm not over
I'm not over you just yet
Cannot hide it
You're not that easy to forget
I'm not over

its been quite a day...or at least couple of days. i miss the people that i always talk to all the time...they kind of just disappeared off the face of the earth so to speak.  i hate that so much.
i thought i was getting a little bit better but apparently nothing at all has changed.
i think i'm kinda insane but what can i really do i think that we're all insane.
i just guess i do what i have to.

i am gonna try and find more people to talk to .

i guess this is the post where i say happy new years...at least to the people who care enough to celebrate it. i am very hopeful that the new year is going to be a good one. the last year was bad, to only get a lot worse. i really hate how it makes me feel. i don't want that to be me anymore, the way that i was before...

my resolutions, i guess, are to 1. stop obsessing over things. 2. get over a promise i made when i was sixteen 3. fix a "problem." 4. maybe go on a date? and 5. stop going crazy over dumb things.

happy new year all.
i'm gonna go to the party.
make me feel less lame and talk to me...

michael
backdownchislett

well...well...well.
i'm back. i went home for a few weeks, in order to straighten my head out.
it's not really entirely straight honestly.
i don't know what's going on, to be perfectly honest.
brendon, i just heard you're moving on slammingly, again. breaking hearts is just your game isn't it? i'm so tired of being in love with you. i give up. who's heart will be next? it'll be hilarious to see your next victim.
i dont' really know if my trip counted as a ~spiritual journey, considering it involved drinking too much, and begging my parents to let me leave this place.

i guess i am kind of stuck here.
so...i'd kind of like to talk to some people.
old friends of mine and new.

i want to reinvent my life.

- michael
backdownchislett

[[I am revamping his character a little. And Mosh-s I want to talk to you. :D]]

I have the strangest feeling that my life is a joke.

I hate this place more and more every single day.
Does anyone want to go do something?
If you can distract me, I will seriously...repay you somehow.
Anything, just, I need an out of some kind.


IM me?
backdownchislett

I was not sure at first...if I was going to make it off this stupid island alive. An obsession was eating me up...and I didn't know how to deal with that. I had been in love with the same boy for years. He was the one I promised forever and I figured, when you...make that kind of promise then it is forever for real.

That love died.

Not on my side at least, but on his.

It hurt me more than anything in the world. I'm still hurt. He was...gonna be my first everything...he was my first love.

I still think he's a damned fool! but...there is more out there for me.

In less ranty terms:

I had fun last night!!! I finally felt good in a chat!!!
Jack, comin' over?

Zui, you still own me?

Michael
backdownchislett

I think I have serious issues.
Not to mention, I'm seriously bored
I don't know.
Gah.
Someone save me?

backdownchislett

Seems I need to focus on meeting people.

IM backdownchislett

( If this is a test )

Things have been pretty fantastic my first week here. Brendon has been the same person he always was, which...is awesome.
I haven't met that many though I have had some conversations online.

I was debating getting a cat. But then there's always the horrific possibility that Alex's cat hated it and I would have to get rid of the animal. I couldn't do that to the poor thing so that scares me too much.


Halloween is coming up. I don't know what to be. =(

Sad.